Day 34-What the??!!!

Got my lab results back today after all and guess what-they found nothing!! It sounds bad that I am upset by this. I mean clearly I am happy to be healthy but at the same time, really frustrated because there is nothing keeping me from losing weight but myself it seems. What am I doing wrong?!! Grrr. B suggested I try P90X again but this time do the real version and not the "lean" version that I tried the first time around-which also got me nowhere. The classic version is more intense. It just irritates me when the worst thing in my house to eat is Reduced Fat Jiff Peanut butter.

Day 33-Doctor Day

Well thankfully I wasn't at the doctors office all morning. It actually went pretty quickly, I guess thats what you get for getting in early-they don't get a chance to run behind! Unfortunately, I got no answers today. They said they probably won't have all my labs back till Monday so they'll call me. Grrr. I took my blood pressure myself this morning and it was sky high at 136/96 and I thought, "oh no, i'm doomed." I get really nervous when I go to the doctor because I'm afraid they will see my blood pressure is and put me on meds-which I don't want to be on, so in worrying I usually make it worse. But, thankfully, when the nurse took it it was 128/84 whew. I want a clean bill of health but if it comes back that I'm normal and just fat, I'm going to be really upset! She said just keep working out like I have been and drink plenty of water.

Day 32-Back on track

Whoo ok we are back on track. Last night I did my 30 day workout and the Firm 15 mins of crazy cardio. Sweaty mess that was. This morning I got up and did my pilates. So far so good. I am really excited about my doctors appt tomorrow how sad is that? I just want some answers-and a clean bill of health.

Tues-Day 31

I'll be honest I haven't done anything since last Thurs night. I had every intention of getting up and doing something Friday morning but since I was going out of town and leaving straight from work I was rushing to make sure I didnt forget everything. Well, I forgot the workout whoops. I am proud of myself for not completely eating like crap this weekend-until Sunday. B and I basically switched places, I came home and he went to Ft. Worth so we met at a roadside DQ (lack of options on this drive) for a romantic lunch lol. I slept so much this weekend and was so tired. So still feeling tired, Monday morning workout didnt happen. We went to the grocery store last night after I got off work and then ate dinner. By that time it was after 8 so working out wasn't in the cards. Tonight I will get back on the horse.

In summary 30 days later-NO CHANGE!!!

Day 27

Yesterday I again did my pilates in the am and at night I decided to go to level 3. I am really surprised, not that it was easy by any means but its definately more about using your own body weight as resistance rather than the weights and more plyometrics based. You still use weights but not as much. I feel that level 2 is harder, I was definately sweating more with level 2.

I am mad at myself because I had my alarm set for 5:30 this morning to get up and workout prior to my normal time because I am leaving straight from work to go somewhere and had to get stuff ready and what happens? Of course I dont recall turning it off and going back to sleep. So when I wake up at my normal time I'm like "crap." Oh well.

Thurs-Day 26

I made a doctors appt to have a physical next Thursday. Maybe there is something glaringly obvious that they will be able to see and I can't. Plus this will put my mind at ease. I got the first slot of the day, so hopefully it won't take forever. The last time I had a physical was like '07 and he said "you are the picture of health" as far as all my tests were concerned. So...we'll see whats changed. I know since then I have put on 15 lbs and my blood pressure was high. So high that my gyno took me off the pill. So since its been about 6 months since then, I'm curious to see how my bp is now. Everytime I take it at home with my machine its ok, but I get nervous and start worrying that it will be high when I'm in their office and I think I make it worse. We shall see I guess.

I have been switching it up these last few days and doing pilates in the morning instead of the 30 day shred and then doing the 30 day shred and something else at night. I kind of like the stretching in the morning.

Wed-Day 25

I tried not to weigh myself for a few days so I could be surprised when I finally did. I weighed this morning and I have gained weight. WTH???!!!! This is ridiculous I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!! I have been trying to carb down, I am eating less but still enough, I am working out an hour and a half a day and I gained weight!!!! I am fighting back tears right now let me tell you. And I really don't think its muscle weight because I have put on about 15 pounds in the last 2 years and I know that I am not supposed to weigh this. This is not my "healthy weight". My "healthy weight" I am now seeing I totally took for granted and it was 15 pounds ago. I thought when I first started this adventure that I could lose at least 10 pounds by the trip. Seeing as how I had about 10 weeks to do that, I thought a pound a week is totally doable! But at this rate, I'll be glad to lose 5, and I havent lost any!! I really don't know what to do. Do I need to see an endocrinologist? Do I need to have a physical? What do I need to do?